Little Bored Fauntleroy
life is so unfair.
7/16/11
postscript.
On my way down the rabbit hole I grabbed onto a random twig to keep myself from being swallowed by the abyss: this blog. |
I can't claim to be in the clear...since, you know, it's life and there is no clear. But I'm on terra-firmer, anyway. |
In the meantime, while I figure out how to reconfigure everything, feel free to visit me on Tumblr. It turns out images are my new favorite language (...which, of course, isn't going to stop me from using lots and lots of words.) |
7/15/11
Epilogue.
I go out now...sometimes. It's like remembering a vague idea of love. |
I was on my bike the other night and it was beautiful, perfect, home. |
And I think maybe one day I'll still do my stupid hundred miles. (but not too soon, though, I'm sadly out of shape.) |
Thus ends Chapter 1. |
7/13/11
7/10/11
7/9/11
Epilogue 7.
I struggled and failed, struggled and failed, struggled and failed, and finally got a grip on the alcohol. It was that or give it up completely, and that's just crazy. |
I spoke to, saw, no one. |
And because I didn't know what else to do, I continued shuffling forward. |
7/8/11
Epilogue 6.
I mean my dad, my brother...these are amazing guys with families, for them it matters. |
7/7/11
Epilogue, part 5.
For six months I stayed inside and outside stayed outside. Out There was the enemy. Out There wanted to kill me.
7/6/11
Epilogue, part 4.
...my brother was diagnosed with cancer, again. My father went into the hospital... |
Little Bored Fauntleroy went down...HARD BABY! |
I couldn't ride, my work wasn't going well...everything was broken. |
OUT THERE, once a place I was madly in love with, once the greatest place on earth... |
Once, but not anymore. |
7/3/11
Epilogue, part 3.
So I rode my bike... |
...I made some mediocre art... |
...I entirely disliked a few women... |
...it was a good life. Well, it was a life, but still one I sort of enjoyed. |
7/2/11
Epilogue, part 2.
Which came first, the chicken or the egg? |
Which came first, the world that didn't want me or me that didn't want the world? |
7/1/11
Epilogue, part 1.
I am not a popular man. I wasn't the high school quarterback and I didn't date the lead cheerleader. |
I mean holy sh*t on that one, of you know what I mean. Well...there was always that small part of me that wanted to belong, be them: matter. |
But you don't choose these things, they do. And though I didn't have anything against them, I could never be one of them. They grew up to become this. |
I grew up to become this. |
But I got on in the world. There were things that made me happy. |
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